Because life's too short to blush,

I keep my blood tucked in.

I won't be mortified1

by what I drive or the flaccid

vivacity2 of my last dinner party.

I take my cue from statues posing only

in their shoulder pads of snow: all January

you can see them working on their granite3 tans.

That I woke at an ungainly hour,

stripped of the merchandise that clothed me,

distilled4 to pure suchness,

means not enough to anyone for me

to confess. I do not suffer

from the excess of taste

that spells embarrassment5:

mothers who find their kids unseemly

in their condom earrings6,

girls cringing7 to think

they could be frumpish as their mothers.

Though the late nonerotic Elvis

in his studded gut8 of jumpsuit

made everybody squeamish, I admit.

Rule one: the King must not elicit9 pity.

Was the audience afraid of being tainted10

this might rub off on me

or were theysurrendering

what a femme wordfeeling

solicitousglimpsing their fragility

in his reversible purples

and unwholesome goldish chains?

At least embarrassment is not an imitation.

It's intimacy11 for beginners,

the orgasm no one cares to fake.

I almost admire it. I almost wrote despise.