by John Balaban

Hadn't seen Eddie for some time,

wheeling his chair through traffic,

skinny legs in shorts, T-shirted,

down at the corner off Dixie Highway,

lifting his Coke cup to the drivers

backed up, bumper1 to bumper, at the light.

Sometimes he slept on the concrete bench

up from Joe's News. Sometimes police

would haul him in and he said he didn't mind

because he got three squares and sometimes

a doctor would look at his legs, paralyzed,

he said, since the cop in New York shot him

when he tried to steal a car. Sad story,

of the kind we've learned to live with.

One rainy day he looked so bad, legs

ballooned, ankles to calves2, clothes soaked,

I shoved a $20 in his cup. But, like I said,

I hadn't seen him around so yesterday

I sTOPped and asked this other panhandler,

Where's Eddie? Dead, he said. Slammed

by a truck running the light, crushed

into his wheelchair. Dead, months ago.

My wife says he's better off dead,

but I don't know. Behind his smudged glasses

his eyes were clever. He had a goofy smile

but his patter was sharp. His legs were a mess

and he had to be lonely. But spending days

in the bright fanfare3 of traffic and

those nights on his bench, with the moon

huge in the palm trees, the highway quiet,

some good dreams must have come to him.